Change

Over the past few days many friends close and not so close and soon-to-be close friends kept pointing out the trait that I have long overlooked in myself. It hit me dead on while I was "running" with a friend in Griffith Park, it wasn’t quite a run as it was an uphill haul that we walked most of the way, but on the way down he started to ask questions and for some reason I spilled. Most people know me to be a pretty private person but for some reason he was right there asking what needed to be asked and I said what I needed to say. Over my rather short lifetime I’ve never lived in the same place for more than 4 years (college) so I get antsy by the time year 2 rolls around. I moved to LA almost exactly 2 years ago and I’ve become anxious to get right back out. But to where? Australia? England? My friend put it totally into perspective for me, I'm a runner.  I run from everything well time a changin.

I’ve come to grips with the fact that I’m a creature of change. New places are always better to experience for me. Everywhere I go I tend to be a loner and keep myself from being entangled with others. Making connections in one city only leads to being ripped apart one I leave. I used to depend on my brothers and family for support growing up but now I’m on my own and I’ve made those lasting connections and now I can’t nor do I want to break them. The people I’ve met in this city, as flaky as some of them are, are some of the best people in the world. Where else can a friend tell you how fickle you are then go scam on boys with you? Yet again I’m in the middle of a ¼ life crisis. I turned 25 and my world basically flipped upside down. But only upside down, not spinning out of control. Thank you to those who gave me that quick whack up side the head, you know who you are, and like it or not you just might get stuck with me for a good long while.